Will, a heightened emotional state, even a joyful one like welcoming Ahmadullah, will trigger many other emotions. Even the adrenaline involved will set things off.
I agree you are addicted to purpose, but face it buddy, you are also addicted to emotion. It's a place you'll always go back to. But I'm glad you have tools like meditation to give yourself a break now and then.
Awww. God love ya Will. I'm so so sorry you had to go through that!! Hope it didn't last too long. Yes unfortunately Flashbacks and nightmares are both something I'm quite familiar with although fortunately I have been free of them for quite some time.
Something happened to me a few weeks ago though that really shook my sense of safety. I was basically terrorized for 3 hours by this crazy woman (long story) who lives in the neighborhood. It was here we go again. ALL the progress I'd made since 1986 was gone. Had to call the Police, buy 3 bottles of pepper spray and a stun gun and here come the flash backs and nightmares. Feeling a little better now but I know what you mean. It doesn't take much to set everything off and I bet that's what happened to you with your Trip. Hope you're starting to feel better now. I'm so happy you have a supportive wife!! I'm blessed with great friends, a wonderful family and a superb Recovery family in NA. They're my true lifeline.
I do think however that's part of why I fell in love with News and Politics. The rush. I admit it. But I never in a million years when I became a Political Activist in 2008 for Barack Obama would I have dreamed we'd end up in a place like this. God help us all. Thanks so much for sharing your feelings. It helps people like me so much. Get some rest this weekend dear Will!! ❤️🇺🇸💙
Will, a heightened emotional state, even a joyful one like welcoming Ahmadullah, will trigger many other emotions. Even the adrenaline involved will set things off.
I agree you are addicted to purpose, but face it buddy, you are also addicted to emotion. It's a place you'll always go back to. But I'm glad you have tools like meditation to give yourself a break now and then.
Thanks, Kathleen. I think I'll dwell on that point—I'm addicted to emotion. Thank you!
Awww. God love ya Will. I'm so so sorry you had to go through that!! Hope it didn't last too long. Yes unfortunately Flashbacks and nightmares are both something I'm quite familiar with although fortunately I have been free of them for quite some time.
Something happened to me a few weeks ago though that really shook my sense of safety. I was basically terrorized for 3 hours by this crazy woman (long story) who lives in the neighborhood. It was here we go again. ALL the progress I'd made since 1986 was gone. Had to call the Police, buy 3 bottles of pepper spray and a stun gun and here come the flash backs and nightmares. Feeling a little better now but I know what you mean. It doesn't take much to set everything off and I bet that's what happened to you with your Trip. Hope you're starting to feel better now. I'm so happy you have a supportive wife!! I'm blessed with great friends, a wonderful family and a superb Recovery family in NA. They're my true lifeline.
I do think however that's part of why I fell in love with News and Politics. The rush. I admit it. But I never in a million years when I became a Political Activist in 2008 for Barack Obama would I have dreamed we'd end up in a place like this. God help us all. Thanks so much for sharing your feelings. It helps people like me so much. Get some rest this weekend dear Will!! ❤️🇺🇸💙